The Score (have a brain, play the game and aim)

Listening to Frank Sinatra's 'Strangers In The Night'

"Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wond'ring in the nightWhat were the chances we'd be sharing love
Before the night was through.

Ever since that night we've been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right, For strangers in the night.

Love was just a glance away, A warm embracing dance away..."

For sure, not everyone is a smooth crooner like Frank Sinatra.
As much as i love this song, it is too simply and fantasy-like.
Love is not just a glance away,
Even if it is, i question that 'in love forever' and 'it turned out so right' part.
As things are NEVER that simple.
Relationships are NEVER that clean cut.

As Frank Sinatra started doing the 'Do dody doby do' I know that there is no way this song is serious...

Everyone loves this sort of serendipidy... fate that bounds two people together.
Encounters and match made in heaven where two loners complete one another.
This is actually just fantasy made up by people who longed for a significant other.
They long for someone to share their life with
If that someone is a stranger in the night, they can attribute their meeting to be one of destiny brought together by love. And only love...
Yet, fantasies often stay where they are.

It got me thinking about...
If the scenario of strangers in the night DOES happen,
Does it mean we involuntarily automatically entered the love game??
Like a game of basketball, there are the main players and the benched one.
In the love game, we are either on the field or on the bench,
yet there can onlybe one that shoot the hoop and get points.

Are you the one that is being benched by the other person? Only when timee get rough he/she will find you?
Are you the one that is on the field? Hoping one day you will beat the rest and be the one that shoo the hoops? We are all aiming to win, yet, there can be only one person that the person end up up. Are we being benched or being given a chance to shoot the hoop by the other person?

It is time to shake you brains out of it and take control. For your heart is not a lost sheep being shepherd around. You should rise above yourself, and have a plan instead of going straight into what the heart is telling you to do first. This may take lots of determination and practise but at the end, you know that your ball is only going into the hoop if you aim. Take your heart with hands of steel, control your mind and follow the original plan (the next article will be about The Plan).

Do not let jealousy, infatuation, desperation and the desire overwhelm you! Merry Christmas everyone. Hopefully eveyone had a good one.Santa has not visited me... yet. But i am getting myeself presents!

The passion (get up, brush your shoulders and walk on).

For anything to happen there has to be a transfer or change or conversion of Energy. - A transfer from one type of energy to another type - potential to kinetic.

The laws of physics and thermodynamics has been the basis of today's technology. We learn about it when we are as young as 10 years old. Yet, in all its practicality, we fail to, at times, apply it on our inner life. The energy that fuels our life is the PASSION. A passionate person is often one filled with life and fire in the eyes. Eg, an environmentalist is the most passionate around nature and lights up like a bulb in environmental activities. A dull person, on the other hand, does not have much passion in life. How then, can we manipulate this passion that we all have to benefit us in life? Humans have been converting black coal to fuel cities, manipulating electricity to cook and even harvest solar energy. Surely there are ways to manipulate ourselves.

Relationships is one of the strongest sources of passion. We do things that we can never imagine we can, get learn things that we never have dreamt of, we experience moments that we never thought were humanly possible, our passion ignites in bursts. Yet, such passion can be uncontrollable and if one plays with fire, they risk getting burn.

The side effect of too much passion is also stated in the laws of physics. The higher you go, they worse the fall will be. Relationships can turn sour, making the most passionate lovebirds into passionate haters. The sweet and bliss you have tasted will haunt you when you taste bitterness and breakups. Being too 'naked' with passion leaves one armourless and the passion backfired, one wished that the relationship and passion should never had started in the first place.

After countless hours of lonely thoughts, confiding to close friends and families, playing back sad breakup songs and fits of anger and cursing towards the other party, time eventually heal. One becomes better and soon, forgive and forgets. However, in a modern world like today, how much time do we have to let the slow process of healing take place? How much passion in life are we losing out? How much energy is being wasted on futile thoughts? Can we speed the healing up by converting this passion to more productive things? I say yes.

Humans have only one brain, we do multi-tasking but it is only when we are focused on something, things can happen. After a recent break-up, i decided to get up, brush my shouders and walk on. I channelled the passion, that would have been used to cast voodoo on the other person, question myself what have i done wrong, think of ways to be a better man in the future and stupid bouts of depression, to things that will take my one brain off the loser behaviors.

I read, Dan Brown is awesome. I draw, as it is about time to pick up the pencil again before i lose the 'touche'. I breathe and thought... it may be a blessing in disguise as i have learnt alot. I made sure that my heart is feeling justified and tell my friends to shut up if they bring that sensitive topic up again (till i feel confortable opening that Pandora's Box and laughed about it). I get up, brush my shouder and walk on. I go back to the life i love and had, before the relationship. I conserve the passion, and tell myself that a worthier one will come.

If someone tell you that you will only have one Great Love in you life, if lucky, two... tell them to shut up. The ones that no longer, are no longer considered a Great Love. We NEED one Great Love and will constanly grow if the one you thought is the One, happens to be not, so that when the Great Love appears... you will be ready to receive.

It's only the other party's lost if you can get up quickly, brush your shoudlers and walk on ahead.

Alone Again, Naturally

"All my heart, forever."
Yesterday, when she cried, I cried with her.

Perhaps the many songs that played such as 'I Only Wanna Be With You',
'I know Him By Heart', 'I Want Love', 'Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow',
'Fools Fall In Love', 'You're the First, The Last, My Everything', 'You Belong To Me',
'How Can You Mend A Broken Heart' and 'Tears On My Pillow' had affected me.

Perhaps I see myself in her. Perhaps i am her (in another body of course).

Yet, why are we alone again, naturally.
I walk home to my place alone. Is there nothing there for me?
So how can someone who believes in love, who believes that there will be someone
The Almightly will put in my life, that will cross my path, be still lonely, naturally?
How can I, who in my heart, knows that one day the loneliness will not longer be part of me, still be so alone?
Is that person late? Was I wrong? Will I be.

They say that once one reach certain age, they stop believing in the world of fantasy. Reality takes over.
I still very much live in the world of fantasy but also intertwined in the most disgusting way with reality.
At times, i wish that someone will come and rescue me from this loneliness, sweeping me off my feel and be in love.
At times, i wish that loneliness beomes my friend and i live a life with no strings attached and be a free spirit.
Will i outgrow it eventually?

Today, i am waiting. I am waiting for the great love of my life to come knocking on my door, and i shall receive it with all my heart and soul. Loneliness begone.

For i deserve/demand great love.
I cannot always be the first person to initiate conversation/ ask another out/ call or text or email the other.
I cannot always be the one who always want to please, who feels inadequate and who becomes needy.
I want to be asked, to be pursued and feel wanted.
I want it all.

♥ "I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, Inconvenient, Consuming, Can't live without each other Love."

I am definitely 'Searchin' My Soul Tonight'.