Tuesday, May 30, 2006

The Green Monster and Greenhouse-Geisser test

Vineyard- Above all
Above all powers, above all kings, above all nature and all created things.
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man, you were here before the world began.
Above all kingdom, above all throne, above all wonders the world has ever known.
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth, there’s no way to imagine what you are worth.
Crucified, laid behind the stone, He lived to died, rejected and alone.
Like a rose, trampled on the ground.
You took the fall and thought of me above all.

I was reading 1 Peter last night and read on the verse that I had been carrying around with me on my bag. Chapter 5 verse 7 reads ‘Cast all you anxiety on him because he cares for you’.

Doesn’t that makes you shiver?

Exams do. G’day everybody, it is midweek of Swot Vac and it will be over soon. Anxiety sky rocketed for you guys yet? I know that I just woke up that day and realized that this is it. Second last semester of my degree. I want to do well, I hope I can… I so really do. It occurred to me that I was taking it all too easy previous semesters and it explains why I have no H1s… sob at one corner. I am an idiot, it is there for me to grab… I have to reach higher this time!! I hope that all of my friends do very well too… also partly because I can be spared the agony of them whining.

Moving on, happy 21st Surein. How fast this boy has grew up huh? Anyways enjoy your big day (even though it is spot on exam period), just wanna let you know that I love and cherish you as a friend (just don’t expect me to kiss you like you did to me on my b’day yea… hehe joking).

Past few weeks had been really really really humbling for me. Great learning experience as I explored more about myself and the world. Alongside that I am really very ignorant, lack a lot of life experience and has to learn many many things as many other people seemed to know more than me.

Or, maybe I am just humble and knows a lot of things, more so than many people that is older than me, but just wanna stay humble and learn as much as I can (hehehe). It doesn’t matter. I learnt that if I judge myself against other people, I WILL NEVER be happy. Someone else will be better at something and someone else will be better than that someone else. Talk about the green monster wanting to compete, ugly ugly green monster.

Instead, I only have to myself to answer to and do what my best can do. So I have to do my best, give my all, cross my finger and be satisfied. Yep, I vouch to do my very extreme best for this exam or else… or else…

On the lighter note, I have a joke to share with you guys. It came from a toilet forum.
Definition of ghost poo: the shit that flew out of you ass without any effort, makes no noise or splash when it falls, zoomed into the toilet hole and disappears into thin air. You don’t even have to wipe as it is white clean on your Kleenex (no need flushing too).

Hehehe, that’s all folks. Btw, did anyone saw what happened between Gretel Killeen and Mikey? FEUD!!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Do It, To It

End of week 11------------>exam period started!!!(teeth chattering).

I was reading the whole of book of James on my NIB Bible last night. It was short book, only about 3 pages wrong but it sure am an asserting book. It talked about faith with no deed is dead. A book that constantly challanges me, James went on about people, doer, action, deeds, works and like Abraham, who is being called a friend of God, a man who do as he believes, by sacrificing his only son, Isaac.

It struck me as i have start to get up on my ass to finally do some really required readings in preparation for the big one. I felt really bad as i had neglected my readings for the past 3 weeks, thus i had not understood alot of terms being said in lectures. I shall announce that revision starts NOW!!


Another course of action thati had been doing is going to gym with a friend of mine, 'ol John. As usual, as a talk about anything friend, we went from Psychology to girls. Girls are such wierd entity that it is impossible to understand them. When apart, she will be mad if you don't call her or when you don't pick up her phone (as you are busy, as always), she will be so pissed her head flew to the moon.

Then, when together, she can be occassionally nice, occassionally not nice... and when you ask her 'honey is anything wrong'... she will snap 'no'! Then you go, ok, everything is fine then. then she will go ranting 'U are so insensitive, i had such a bad day and you don't even notice it.'

Ermm, but she said she was 'fine' a minute ago. Well, mood swings, but if you mention the word PMS (a no go zone, my fellow male species) to her, she will call you a chauvanistic jerk who is selfish and do not understand her or woman. Your fault as usual.

Then, you decided to let her cool down by not talking to her as everything you say will be wrong (uhuh)... she cries. She thinks you are ignoring her because she thinks you are angry with her for quarrelling with you. she will act as the victim now, she will say that you think she is the meanest bitch in the whole world when she is in fact 'misunderstood'. Yesh, go on, comfort her and say the nicest things to her. Perhaps buy her a flower or a new shoe.

When you 2 have a BIG quarrel, she will have a cold war with you. Not talk to you, not picking up you phone and insulting you infront of your mates whilts complaining to her girlfriends about you (usually she tell them tt you have a small dick, gherkin). then you move on when another girl seemed interested in your newly single status.

She gets green with envy!!! She tries to get you back, be REALLY REALLY nice to you. Very meek and agrees with everything you say, she suddenly become a mate, and you think mabbe she is really nice and you don't wanna lose her. She packes lunch for you, while fighting with the new girl (backstage). Then you decided to get back together.

After a week of sweet get back, she starts her attitude all over again. Accuse me of lying when i said i had tried to call her once every half an hour for the past 5 hours. So i am the meanest jerk all over again, while she complain to her girlfriends, and play the role of this misunderstood, poor, bullied, innocent and lovely, just lovely little girl.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Itineraries

After a grueling coupl' o weeks of moulding my brain plasticity into exam prep mode, i finally ticked off a coupl' o things from my to do list. My business itinerary seemed to be doomed when the Ebay did something to my lovely account. Yesh, by shutting it off because they found me to be linked to a previous user that they had barred... aka me.

I was pissed of for a coupl' o days before finally calmed down a little. Lets take a further look at my itineraries before exams starts. I had gone for a choppy hair cut and a spray tan for winter that is much needed. I had got sick of loitering the city.. ticked... after being drenched in rain last Friday thanks to someone rather annoying. I had started to revise my work (good grief). Yet, the worst is to come.

So i have an assignment due this Thursday, which i have proudly done but not sure of scoring for it. I got back my mid semester test result and got only 24/40... almost hanged myself as one of my mate says, blatantly, that he did not prepare for the test as he had one 30% assignment due on the same day. Yet he got 29/40!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Indespicable, unforgivable.. i really feel stupid these days. It's like i don't have the Genetics genes in me. No matter how much i study for it, i still get shit marks. And my lab demonstrator keeps on asking me to see him if i have any problems (he really thinks i am dumb as i am blond). I'm like fuck off, i have no time to see you, you paedophilic, blond-hating, assuming-that-i-dunno-my-stuff prick. Yet i have to see him or i really have no idea how to do those lab reports that are due every week and cost a certain percent that adds up to 50% of the total mark which contributed to 25% of ym total Genetic marks which in all is 80% for my third year marks to get into honours which is WHAT I MUST HAVE!!

Then again, i have 2 lab reports due next Tuesday, one presentation next Monday and another Psych lab report due on the week after next. Then, it is Swot Vac, then it is hell from 7th of june (my first paper) to 23rd of June. On the brighter side, my siblings are coming over and we'll have a jolly time (ermm, still to far away, the thought of exams kill me and possibly reduce my sperm production by 66% due to stress). Hehehe.

Ok shall not think so much or i will require lots and lots of therapy. Just stay focus!! Good luck with your exams everyone (smack my lips like a chimp).