But I Will Never Do Me Wrong‏

A rainy cold night, on a December start. Listening to Adele's Make You Feel My Love.
It is nights like these that I feel truly alone. A pure solitude, a road that I am walking alone.
It is nights like these that the unfinished businesses come out to play in my mind.Nights like these are depressing, painful, slow and bad.
Yet nights like these make me cherish the happy days, where I have sunshine and smiles.Nights like these gives me the strength and motivation to face tomorrowAnd live it to 110%.

Recently, I feel that I have been rushing this year to end. I realised this after spending some time in Sydney, away from it all here.There is still 20 days left to December but already I have had enough of this year.20 days... 20 days... 20 days.
What can I achieve in 20 days?There are still parts of me that feels unsatisfied, unfulfilled and it is unacceptable.This artikelen is mostly for myself.
I hope God give me something in this one last 20 days.Firstly there is the New Years Resolution that I have yet to establish.

I personally feel that 2010 will be THE year that I settle some old issues.I will turn 24 years old next year. A year which makes me a 'real' adult, whether I like it or not.This adult-to-be is actually 4 months away since my birthday falls on March.Perhaps this year was a preliminary test/ test fun for adulthood.I learnt that I am indeed maturing, getting stronger mentally and defining myself.This year, I have lived without much consequences, lived hastily But it was a year where I felt content for the first time ina long time.
Next year, I must live.

Live and not just drone through day by day.I really hope that I can make new friends. Different people. Different friends.I hope that I can get accepted in Qantas's Flight Attendant Programme.I know that this may mean drifting away from solid gound, literally and figuratively,
But this year had taught me that it will be good for me to drift away a little bit.
I seemed to thrive on it, exposing me to new territories that make me uncomfortable enpowers me.I must admit that they can be unbearable and uncomfortable, but that is when i get to practice my adaptation.

Thus, plans for this 20 days is to gather my thoughts to strategise for next year.Find my targets and goals, make my bow, sharpen my arrow and start practice shooting.
Perhaps Santa will surprise me this Xmas.

The Buys and Byes of Y2009

December the 3rd, 2009. Who would have seen this day coming? Oh what a glorious 'daiye' it was. The morning was lazy, Yum Cha brunch at the wonderful Chinatown (but of course), caught a new movie Twilight: New Moon, people watching at Bondi (oh! hello) and yes, I was and still am in Sydney. The highlight of today was rubbing shoulders and taking photos with a man I sleep with everyday (oh the scandal!!).

No, I am serious, I have been sleeping with Peter every night, literally. Peter Alexander that is, the Aussie designer guru whose sleepwear range I adore and sleep in! If you thought that the 'sleeping with' was in a twisted Gossip Girl scandal drama way, you are so wrong (you dirty-minded douche). Peter was in his Bondi store doing his charity run for RSPCA when I was in store. I quickly recognised him and went up to him to tell him how much I love his Lygon Street store in Melbourne, which is a stone's throw away from my house. Then a photo session commenced, with me leaving the store a happy customer.

Well, since it is a glorious night, and I am feeling particularly inspired to 'type', as my mate has so graciously lent me his 15 inch MacBook Pro (so awesome, can't wait to get my claws on one), I decided to gather my thoughts of this year and put them in words. You can see it as a celebration of many many wonderful achievements this year, you can see it as a young man's journey in his life, or you can see it as an artikelen where I boast about myself (again...), whichever one you see fit, you are... correct.

So this year started rather insignificantly. Already I have a job, so the future does not seem uncertain and exciting and unpredictable. Already I am independent from my wealthy parents, thus every payday and every purchase is a victory. Already I have money, so my wardrobe is still going through puberty and rapidly expanding. Already I am becoming more beautiful, with my strict gym schedules, dermatologist appointments, good rapport with my hair stylist and the zone diet. So, at the start of the year, I wondered,what is there then? Being a humble good citizen of Earth, I also started being eco-chic and immerse myself in yoga and meditation to better the universe. Then it occurred to me.... I need to be better, like in every way that I can.

I decide to find myself. Find that someone who was lost in all the craziness (or lack of) or the past 8 years of my life. The mediocrity, the vain, the laziness, the hopelessness, the helplessness and lack of focus of the past 8 years. These I have to say goodbyes to. The people that drags me down, I have to sail away from them to. Sail sail sail as far away as I can (good riddance... thank you Lord Jesus Christ for supplying the speedboat). The people that pulls me up, I have to connect and reconnect with them, in multiple levels and not just one. Some goodbyes may be good but some are regrettable. I must admit that I am still currently working on this, as it is not easy when other people are involved (so much drama). Yet, I have established more really good new friendships, with people whom actually care and will go that extra mile to help me when I need them.

As for the 'buys', they are inanimate and inhuman, thus, being a professional shopaholic, I have learnt that I NEVER have to pay full price. And i score 10 out of 10 in this segment! Being tech and market savvy has gained me many procurements and investments, usually obtained when their prices are at their lowest (thus their value can only rise after). I have bought my first PSP (after I sold my old DS right before the new model comes out and the old model's value plummet), bought my first Digicam, bought my first sewing machine (worth $900 but i got it form $400), bought my first furnitures, bought my first Automatic Horlogerie (retails at $3500), expanded my Gucci collection to an impressive amount, obtained many bits and bobs that I had so desired in the past, gone on multiple holidays to new cities and countries, got my first Business class ticket back home, sold my old iPod (right before the new one comes out), going to get my first Mac laptop, put together a fabulous closet where most clothes I have not even wore/debut as yet and many many more which I shall not mention as they may start boring you.

The main point is, all these I have obtained with on my own. I am not expecting a Nobel price or an Oscar for it, but as far as 2009 is concerned, I am feel like a winner. Surely there are many more things I desire, a Porsche, my own house, a better career, more free time, more good mates, more more more, but for now, I am a very very content 23 year old (although I look more like an 18 year old now).

Thinking back, there was this dude whom used to be my friend. We had not spoken in years and just the other day, dude msn-ed me. We exchanged courtesy and chatted for a bit. The sad thing is that dude assumed that I was the same person that I was in the past. I felt insulted at first, then felt sorry for him as I realised that I should not blame him for assuming that, as he IS still the same old person as he was years ago. Lame. Then again, I have dude to thank for as it was all part of my growth. Everything that had happened in the past (good or bad) had contributed to the me today. I always get the last laugh.

Soooooooo.... what's new for next year? If I sound like I am on top of the world already in the above, then 2010 will be dull.

Nope, that is a bad mentality to have. Next year will be more exciting. More achievements. More procurements. There is still so many things I desire. So many growths in my character that I like to see. So many new faces I want to meet. Perhaps a relationship with someone might be nice (I am still Single N UNavailable at the moment though). More experiences, new countries to go to, get closer to my families, more people to save, more 'eco' to be chic about, more scandals, more drama, more of the good and the bad (and learning life lessons from the bad of course).

2010, minimalist is out, more is the new more.